“Is this really what I’m supposed to be doing with my life??”

Do you have those moments of doubt? I sure do! At the end of the day I sometimes find myself asking, “Oh come on. Really? This is all I do? Does it even matter?”

I encourage you (and myself!) to ask whose voice asks that question? It’s such an oppressive thought, such a crushing discouragement, that it feels like an external voice, shouting at my poor tired heart. Well, it IS an external voice. But whose?

Short answer: it’s not Jesus.

What would he say if he were sitting with you as you ask that question: “Does my work matter?” I think he’d smile and say, “If you’re afraid your work isn’t big enough, you’re thinking too small. But don’t worry, I felt that way too.”

When suffering on the cross, he totally identified with our feelings of worthlessness. Jesus didn't feel like his work mattered in that moment. He felt like a “worm” (Psalm 22). But we know that he was actively rescuing the whole freaking world that he loves … all the while feeling like a worm.

The world-shattering importance of Jesus’ work was hidden from the world’s eyes. To them, he looked like just another wanna-be prophet dying at the hands of the Romans. But in God’s eyes he was saving everyone.

So, what does my life – your life – look like in God’s eyes? I don’t know exactly. But I know that we’re both caught up in a glorious story that is way bigger than either of us. And our “little” parts to play have eternally enormous significance.

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