What Do You Do When Hope Feels Cruel?
“Lord, I don’t get it!” I blurted out as I swiped viciously at the tears rolling down my cheeks. I blinked furiously to clear my vision as I turned onto a side street on my way home and continued my rant: “You’ve said that ‘hope deferred makes the heart sick,’ and my heart feels sick right now. I don’t want to become bitter, but how many times are you going to do this to me?!” Yet another door had slammed shut in my face, and I had reached my breaking point. Why would God do this to me? Hadn’t he brought this opportunity along in the first place? Everything seemed to be falling into place so perfectly…surely that had to have been his work!

March 10, 2026



